whats my worth?

whats my worth? is something I've been asking myself a lot lately. It seems like the ones I love the most or who are the closest to me have me questioning my worth to this world. I use to think that the intangibles that you bring to life are the most important. I once said that, I said that the morals and virtues your family and friends teach you are important, but someone told me no. then I said that just because you are taught them doesnt mean they will come out in you. dont get me wrong, i'm not perfect and I dont claim to be, I have definately made my share of mistakes, but when you wear your heart out on your sleeve, and have a different way of looking at life than most others do you will more times than not be walked all over. sometimes people take my kindness for weakness, and it makes me feel like being like some others and just being caught up in the daily rutine of their lives. I cant though, I TRY TO PUT ON THAT STERN LOOK AND HAVE THOSE FEELINGS, BUT IT NEVER WORKS FOR ME. MOST OTHERS WITH THAT ATTITUDE SEEM TO GET MORE ACCOMPLISHED AND GET MORE RESPECT FROM OTHERS WHICH I THINK THEY REACT LIKE THAT TOWARDS THEM BECAUSE FEAR WAS INSTILLED IN THEM. LIKE ROBBIE D SAID IN BRONX TALE "THEY DONT RESPECT HIM, THEY FEAR HIM". BUT HE DID HAVE MORE THAN MOST, AND THATS WHAT ITS ABOUT HERE IN AMERICA, ITS ABOUT HAVING THE MOST OR MORE THAN THE NEXT PERSON. WHO HAS THE BIGGER HOUSE, OR THE MOST EXPENSIVE CAR OR THE BEST DESIGNER CLOTHES AND THATS WHAT IM SURROUNDED BY DAILY. I GUESS I HAVE BEEN BLIND ALL THIS TIME, CAUSE THATS HOW YOUR WORTH IS MEASURED. I THINK I'VE BEEN A FOOL BY SAYING ALL THIS TIME THROUGH MY LIFE THAT ITS THE SMALL THINGS ABOUT A PERSON IS THE MOST IMPORTANT, AND THAT ALL MATERIAL THINGS IN THE WORLD CAN ALWAYS BE BOUGHT.I THOUGHT I HAD A SOLID BASE BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT, BUT RECENTLY I WAS TOLD BY SOMEONE DEAR TO ME THAT I HAD NO BASE, NO FOUNDATION, AND IT HURT BECAUSE I THOUGHT I DID. I WAS WRONG AGAIN. I WILL TELL YOU THIS THOUGH, SOME PEOPLE THAT ARE IN MY LIFE THAT ARENT AS CLOSE AS OTHERS TELL ME DIFFERENT. THEY TELL ME THAT WHAT I DO FOR A CAUSE TO HELP OTHERS IS GREAT AND THAT ILL REAP REWARDS, BUT I DO HAVE TO SAY TO THOSE WONDERFUL PEOPLE THAT I AGREE, BUT THEIR WRONG CAUSE BETWEEN MY FAMILY AND OTHERS THEY SEE MY EFFORTS AS JUST A WASTE OF TIME AND I GET VERY DISCOURAGED. I FEEL REAL SAD A LOT. I WISH THESE PEOPLE WHOM I LOVE VERY MUCH COULD UNDERSTAND ME AND FEEL WHAT I FEEL IN MY HEART. THERE'S A QUOTE THAT GOES" IN A HUNDRED YEARS IT WONT MATTER TO ME WHAT KIND OF CAR I DROVE OR WHAT KIND OF HOUSE I HAD OR HOW MUCH MONEY I HAD, BUT THAT I MADE A DIIFFERENCE IN THE LIFE OF A CHILD. ME I JUST WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN ALL PEOPLES LIVES. I GUESS I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED FOR BEING ME.